- Can you see it?
This blog is a ‘biggie’ for me. It’s laying my innermost thoughts out there. Why? Because I think people should know that being an artist isn’t as simple as just sitting down and painting, then popping a price on it. It’s not just about time spent on the piece, money spent on materials, rent on your studio space, utility bills to give you the light and keep you warm. It is also about being unable to put a price on the emotional turmoil and the price you pay as an artist for allowing yourself to go there. I’ve no idea how it is for other creative people so I’ve decided to open the doors to my mind, to get it out there onto paper, to better understand myself as an artist... a bit of written therapy.
I am a highly emotive artist and I have an abstract mind. I’m always interested in the bigger picture, aware of the nature around me and my guides helping me to be creative. I am always searching for something which gives me inspiration. BUT ‘inspiration’ to me is a bit of a loaded word. It is not all pretty sunsets and colourful butterflies (though true, these can lift the mind and make you stop for a moment). Inspirations for me are things which have an emotional influence on my heart and soul. Inspiration is light and dark, it is fast and intentionally slow, it is raw.
Music is my biggest source of inspiration. It encourages feelings to come to the surface. Music pulls you out of your everyday brain – chatter into another level of intensity.
Meditation For me can help my emotions and creativity become clearer, it brings an inner tranquillity, peace and dusts the mind clear from unwanted clutter.
To say I’m in touch with my emotions is really saying I have them on speed dial. Being a lightworker too means I am aware and open to energies around me, I feel things on a deep level, I am affected easily and I am still learning to channel it into my creativity.
Inspiration can be fleeting, it can creep up on you when you least expect it (usually when I am driving or about to go to sleep!) or it can overload you into distraction. I can get completely lost and immersed in my inspiration; it can be feelings of sadness, complete love or overwhelming loss – each emotion feeling the same as each other, almost bitter sweet.
I can be enticed into inspiration so much that my body cannot possibly achieve what the soul feels. From the soul to the brain down my arms into my hand which holds the brush. Travelling that distance dissolves the energy and can never do the feelings justice. This is why I keep painting, hoping to convey the colours my soul cries out to see, hoping to keep becoming inspired, hoping to keep refreshing the feelings of love and loss. It is the tearing apart of body and soul, the uplifting freedom of inspiration, the dark depths of sadness and the bottomless black hole of feelings you can almost touch. When you try to grab hold they grab you back and can almost crush you... all this for a painting!!!
Inspiration is energy; it can transform itself and dissipate if left unused. Sources of inspiration can fizzle out. A song which touches your soul can wear thin after hearing it for the 100th time.
Feelings become sensitized can harden against emotions making the search for inspiration go on. Like a junkie I am waiting for my next fix, creating it and throwing myself into it. I am a slave to scoring a big chunk of pure emotion filled slice of inspiration.
The search for inspiration has to go on for your creativity to live. You have to evolve as an artist, allow your work to grow to keep the feelings fresh and the inspirations raw and new. This is how you are able to grow as an artist; it is out of survival and necessity of your creative gift needing to be fed!
Highlighting helps.
This blog is a ‘biggie’ for me. It’s laying my innermost thoughts out there. Why? Because I think people should know that being an artist isn’t as simple as just sitting down and painting, then popping a price on it. It’s not just about time spent on the piece, money spent on materials, rent on your studio space, utility bills to give you the light and keep you warm. It is also about being unable to put a price on the emotional turmoil and the price you pay as an artist for allowing yourself to go there. I’ve no idea how it is for other creative people so I’ve decided to open the doors to my mind, to get it out there onto paper, to better understand myself as an artist... a bit of written therapy.
I am a highly emotive artist and I have an abstract mind. I’m always interested in the bigger picture, aware of the nature around me and my guides helping me to be creative. I am always searching for something which gives me inspiration. BUT ‘inspiration’ to me is a bit of a loaded word. It is not all pretty sunsets and colourful butterflies (though true, these can lift the mind and make you stop for a moment). Inspirations for me are things which have an emotional influence on my heart and soul. Inspiration is light and dark, it is fast and intentionally slow, it is raw.
Music is my biggest source of inspiration. It encourages feelings to come to the surface. Music pulls you out of your everyday brain – chatter into another level of intensity.
Meditation For me can help my emotions and creativity become clearer, it brings an inner tranquillity, peace and dusts the mind clear from unwanted clutter.
To say I’m in touch with my emotions is really saying I have them on speed dial. Being a lightworker too means I am aware and open to energies around me, I feel things on a deep level, I am affected easily and I am still learning to channel it into my creativity.
Inspiration can be fleeting, it can creep up on you when you least expect it (usually when I am driving or about to go to sleep!) or it can overload you into distraction. I can get completely lost and immersed in my inspiration; it can be feelings of sadness, complete love or overwhelming loss – each emotion feeling the same as each other, almost bitter sweet.
I can be enticed into inspiration so much that my body cannot possibly achieve what the soul feels. From the soul to the brain down my arms into my hand which holds the brush. Travelling that distance dissolves the energy and can never do the feelings justice. This is why I keep painting, hoping to convey the colours my soul cries out to see, hoping to keep becoming inspired, hoping to keep refreshing the feelings of love and loss. It is the tearing apart of body and soul, the uplifting freedom of inspiration, the dark depths of sadness and the bottomless black hole of feelings you can almost touch. When you try to grab hold they grab you back and can almost crush you... all this for a painting!!!
Inspiration is energy; it can transform itself and dissipate if left unused. Sources of inspiration can fizzle out. A song which touches your soul can wear thin after hearing it for the 100th time.
Feelings become sensitized can harden against emotions making the search for inspiration go on. Like a junkie I am waiting for my next fix, creating it and throwing myself into it. I am a slave to scoring a big chunk of pure emotion filled slice of inspiration.
The search for inspiration has to go on for your creativity to live. You have to evolve as an artist, allow your work to grow to keep the feelings fresh and the inspirations raw and new. This is how you are able to grow as an artist; it is out of survival and necessity of your creative gift needing to be fed!
Highlighting helps.
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